Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

What we've made convenient...

I was thinking yesterday about human suffering and also what it means to be human. They say that the greatest and worst experiences of our lives are what really shape us into who we really are. Sometimes those experiences come hand in hand. But when I was thinking about human suffering, probably us white, middle-class folks have it the best. Our suffering consists of dying grandparents or the weight of finals week. This might sound a little heartless, but even the worst of our suffering (an alcoholic parent, physical or sexual abuse, etc.), doesn't seem to compare in my eyes with the suffering of the third world.

Conveniently, we have defined (WE as in the Western, developed world) human and what "real life" is to traveling, education, having people skills, and an occasional spiritual experience. If we can speak, if we are literate, if we have seen other parts of the world, if we have incurred on some magical "other" existence, if we have been to college, if we "know our stuff", then, and only then are we truly human. Right???

Well, I'm not thinking that's particularly true... And worst of all, it devalues the worth of the majority of all the other human beings on this beautiful planet. What if everything we thought was true was completely wrong? Like what if we have placed education on a pedestal so high that we are completely blind to "real life", that is if real life was only seen by the eyes of the suffering. We conveniently assume that if "they" don't have running water, or if they have AIDS, or if they've never been to school that they are less than human. When the reality is that in all the time we've spent going to the lake and playing scrabble, these people have been searching for food and praying for clean water.

I have never experienced the death of a parent, the lack of a parent, starvation, disease, genocide, ethnic cleansing, lack of education, homelessness, etc... I mean the list could go on and on. But I guarantee that if I had experienced any of those terrible things, I would have a much different picture of the world and what true life really is.

I don't know. All I'm saying is that we've made a very convenient definition of life and what it means to be human, that all we've done is spit in the faces of those whose lives look nothing like ours.

It's at least something to ponder...

Lacy

Sunday, June 29, 2008

The Good Life

Lots of people ask me "how's married life?", "how's it feel to be married?", "how are the newlyweds?"... Lots of people have asked me if I feel like a new or different person. Lots of people have asked me to pinpoint the biggest difference. First off, married life is great. I highly recommend it! I get to live with my best friend (sorry Erica), and there is nothing better than that! However, besides the few OBVIOUS differences, here are some things I've learned and encountered as a newlywed wife.

1.) For the first time in my life I am poor. This may sounds depressing, but it is teaching us a lot. We live in a tiny place. We have no air conditioning. We shop at Aldi's. We go to the laundromat. We play ladder golf instead of going to the movies. I'm sincerely glad we opted out of waiting till we had money to get married.

2.) Love and laughter really are food for the soul. There has not been a single day that has gone by that I haven't loved fully or laughed hard. When you live with someone as funny as Phil, it's hard not to crack up on a frequent basis. But, as one of my new favorite songs goes... "we got our love", and that is what will keep us alive.

3.) The "role" of a wife isn't so bad. I'm serious. I actually like to cook dinner every night. I like to make the house look nice for when Phil gets home from work. I like having to ask Phil to clean the toilet. :) I didn't know about the "role" and if it would fit me or not. Turns out, I'm quite the housewife, especially in my cute floweredy lime-green apron!

4.) Marriage makes you vulnerable. Living with someone 24/7, especially in the way of a spouse, you get a little exposed. Phil sees all my faults. He sees where I'm lazy, what I eat, what I do when no one's looking, how much time I spend with the Lord, etc. And when I'm upset or quiet or sad or whatever, I can't just keep it in. I have to tell him what's up. It's good for a marriage to be vulnerable. Really good.

5.) Sex is only a tiny part of the "becoming one". Becoming one is so much more! How he hangs his towels, where we leave our shoes, the way he likes to make cinnamon toast, how I like the pillows arranged, where we want to go for dinner.... I could go on and on, but I think you get the point. Up until about a month ago, Phil and I did a lot of things in completely different ways. But now that we're married, we see those differences and we find a sweet little middle where the oneness is created! It's beautiful. That's why in a few years from now, we'll have similar sayings, manerisms, heck - we'll probably even start to look alike!

So there ya go... A few things I have learned in the past month!


--Lace

Friday, June 27, 2008

Recent Trends: the GOOD and the BAD

Phil and I frequently talk about the "trends" we see in the world, often in our own community here in Columbia. Trends are really funny things, some good, some awful, some sad, and some that hopefully evolve into ways of life. Let's name a few...

1.) Organic Food. - I haven't decided what I think about it. Sure, it's great because of preservatives and pesticides and what not. I have not been a participant of this trend because of money. Organic food costs too much.

2.) Smoking Cigarettes. - BAD trend. At first it was cigars and the hookah, but now I've heard that the trend is to smoke real cigarettes. This is probably the most surprising fact I've heard lately, and the saddest. With all we know about smoking and how bad it is for our health, it's really stupid that so many people have started it lately.

3.) Going Green. - great trend! Sad that it's a "trend", but at least more people know about it and are becoming more exposed to ways we can help our environment. I have tried a little bit with going green, but again... It's more expensive.

4.) Hummus. - so glad I found this trend. Ha! I love hummus. But don't eat it just because it's "in". Eat it because it's freaking good.

5.) Being "All About" Something. I can't name specifics because it would hurt feelings. But when people are all about a coffee shop, or a book club, or a church, or a group, or whatever, it seems stupid and takes away from the passion you should find within that certain thing. For instance. Instead of being obsessed with a church, be wildly passionate about the Jesus you love. Instead of being obsessed with a certain group, be wildly passionate about your life's mission. Instead of being all about a coffee shop or a book club, be wildly passionate about the relationships and experiences you gain from those things.

6.) "Fake" Specialty Diets. - We've all seen them. The people who tackle a silly diet to be weird or different or whatever. Kudos to those of you (Rachy-Rach!) who have real reasons for your diet and who actually stick with it instead of bailing. There are good reasons to go on specialty diets. But there are really stupid reasons too...

7.) Blogging. - I'm so sad this is a trend, and not a lifestyle. I am a dedicated blogger, and have been since middle school (yes, xanga counts!) It makes me sad when people blog for a few months and then stop. I love the blogging community. Reading ideas, thoughts, learning new music, stuff like that.

8.) American Apparel. - Sorry if this offends you. I just don't buy it. People aren't wearing these clothes for the better cause of AA, (it's a sweatshop free company in case you didn't know). The majority of the "fashion world" wears AA just because it's in. In most cases, (magazine ads, even the AA store on the plaza in KC) I have seen an American Apparel shirt with a $400 pair of jeans. Just doesn't make much sense.

9.) Christian Lingo. - I hate it. "pursue", "intentional", "exclusive relationship", "do life with". I know, I know.... I've said these words and phrases many times. But I feel like they have less meaning now. The words come out because they are the "things to say". I guess if they are meant, then they're not so bad. I just think they are overused.

10.) The Avoidance of the Word "Love". - Never was I a part of this trend. I've actually heard the phrase "we don't know how we feel, we can't trust our emotions" come out of someone's mouth. You can't say you love someone because you don't know what love is. You can't say I love you because if you break up, then your heart will ache worse than if you avoided saying it. Right??? Nope, wrong. If you love someone, you better tell them. And you won't question it when you do, you'll know right away that it's love. No matter what others are telling you. If Jesus, the guy we're all following, is all about love, then maybe we should be too.

I hope that these 10 little comments didn't hurt or offend anyone. That wasn't my intent. Just some things to think about. Especially you smokers! Stop that!!!

Adios,

Lace

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

dream jobs that probably wouldn't require a college degree...

Often I have little dreams of things I could see myself doing. And lately, they have been pounding away at my mind. Most of them just sound like the most perfect job, something that would be fun and different everyday, yet none of them would require a college degree. Here's a small list, (in no specific order, of course):

1. Cupcake Bar - I'd love to start one of these in Columbia. I went to my first last weekend in STL. We'd have a cute name like "the sweetest thing" or something like that, and sell only cupcakes. Big ones, small ones, fruity ones, chocolate ones, maybe even a few VEGAN ones!



2. Wedding Anything - the more and more I think about my wedding day and how much I loved it, I think about planning weddings for others, or working at a gown shop or something. I think it would be a blast to help other girls plan their big day! And, I could show them how to have a gorgeous wedding with a small budget!

3. Cutting Hair - I know, I know, you're probably thinking this job doesn't sound glamourous at all. But I really do think it would be a fun job.

4. Florist - how fun would it be to put beautiful bouquets of flowers together all day? It would constantly smell good and you could always be creative!

(Yes, these are pictures of flowers from my wedding!)


Those are just a few....
Maybe I could do some of these part-time while I have kids, or in the summer when I'm a teacher... I dunno.


-Lace

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Why I've got to be dedicated to loving on youth...

Have you heard this new song? Phil and I heard it for the first time while we were honeymooning. At first I thought it was Lindsey Lohan after her big lesbian kick, turns out, it's another singer by the name of Katy Perry. Here are the astonishing lyrics. I added the italics to emphasize how heartbreaking this is.

This was never the way I planned
Not my intention
I got so brave, drink in hand
Lost my discretion
It's not what, I'm used to
Just wanna try you on
I'm curious for you
Caught my attention

I kissed a girl and I liked it
The taste of her cherry chap stick
I kissed a girl just to try it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a girl and I liked it
I liked it

No, I don't even know your name
It doesn't matter
You're my experimental game
Just human nature
It's not what, good girls do
Not how they should behave
My head gets so confused
Hard to obey

Us girls we are so magical
Soft skin, red lips, so kissable
Hard to resist so touchable
Too good to deny it
Ain't no big deal, it's innocent

This song breaks my heart. How many 13-18 year-old girls are going to hear this and think it's okay to do this? It's innocent. It's just human nature. It's ok, try it out.

Watch the video:

KATY

-Lacy

Friday, May 23, 2008

Throw Up

This morning, all I could think about was the wedding. I got so excited I literally thought I was going to throw up!

One week from today!!!
Lacy Donaldson

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

A final piece of writing...

This is Love

By Lacy Donaldson

Nine.
Nine, nine, NINE!

Nine times I’ve been here and I still can’t stomach it. I don’t know if it’s the smell, the sounds, or the fact that I’ll never be in their situation. We talk all this talk about our purpose and about life to the full. I get it when it comes to me and my life,

But what about them?
What is their purpose?

The thought that they have to live this life so my eyes can see it,
makes me want to throw up.

You say that you are always working towards our good.
But it’s hard to see the good in this place.
It’s hard to let yourself see anything.

Men with tiny legs are lying on rusted roll-away beds. The mattresses have disappeared, leaving the men to relieve themselves through the creaky springs of those old beds. The drool swoops down, landing in their lap. I crouch down, patting them with my warm hands, thanking God they have shut their eyes, hiding them from my tears.

Sobbing, I can feel you.
You are right behind me, whispering…

This is love.
This is love.
This is love.

I remember the first time I ever visited this place. My eyes had been turned on to a world that only certain hearts are able to see. I made my way around the place, stopping here and there to pat a back, wipe a tear, and calm a shaking soul.

Something is weird here. So much heaven and so much hell. It pounds at your heart.
It just doesn’t seem right, you know? No one should have to live like this, no one…

Women are folded over, hunched and hurting. The smell of week-old urine reeks from under their beds. All of their belongings are safely tucked under their pillows, so no one will steal them in the night. I see feet that don’t look like feet, hands that don’t look like hands. And I still can’t seem to understand.

Who has deformed them?
Who has caused this infliction?


Here is what I want to know:
Why didn’t you pick me?
Why am I just seeing this in front of my eyes?
Why can’t I hurt for them?
Why am I not drooling all over myself and dying with no hope?

I can hear you, you answer me almost immediately.

My Daughter, can’t you understand?
This is love.
This is love.
This is love.

But I cannot. I just can’t grasp what your mind is thinking, what your heart is beating, what you are trying to teach me. I can’t seem to find any peace in my soul. Not here, not in this place. I’m wondering why you would allow this to happen. These are your people. These are hearts and minds that you created.

And then I hear you again, breathing inside of me, saying…

You are right, my darling. How can we allow this to happen? You are my body. You are my hands and my feet. Be my body. Be my hands and be my feet. Wrap yourself up in my skin and show these beloved ones a love that they have never imagined. Touch the insides of their souls with your hands. Coax their hearts to see a better day.
Be my body. Be my hands and be my feet.

I return to the women in the corner, my eyes still filled with tears. Without reluctance, I touch them. I hold their hands and look deep into their beautiful eyes. I sing with them and cry with them. I have them tell me their stories, where they have been and what has led them to this place. Listening to the voices of brokenness, I nod and say to myself…

This is love.
This is love.
This is love.

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Best little date night...

Last night Phil and I went on the best little date! Parks & Rec is doing this cool thing, that every 2nd Friday night, now till September, they're showing a movie at Stephen's Park! They have this HUGE blow-up big screen thing. We took a blanket and watched Bee Movie under the stars! It was so much fun! And only $3 a person! Another fun thing to do in Columbia this summer!!!






If you haven't seen Bee Movie, I recommend it!!! Hilarious!


Love,
Lace

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Things to do in Columbia during the summer...

The myth is that summer in Columbia is super lame. 27,000 people leave the city, leaving it boring, hot, and miserable. However, I'm pretty sure that is a myth.

Since Phil and I will be living here this summer, I have been researching things to do, and here are a few things I've found so far:

The Twilight Festival

Every Thursday in June and September, from 6-9, the downtown area is blocked off. There is live music, carriage rides, activities for kids, and all of the shops and restaurants are open late!

9th Street Summerfest

Every Wednesday night, May through October, there is a HUGE block party on 9th street in front of the Blue Note. Every week there is a band, food, and beer. Best of all - everything is free! Death Cab is starting off Summerfest this year, with a Saturday performance on May 31st (the day after my wedding!)

Swimming Pools and Lake Beaches

Columbia has over 7 different aquatic facilities, all for the public to use! Almost all of them are outside! There are 3 lakes with a swim beach, and city pools with slides and fun stuff like that! Can't wait to check these out!

So that's just a few of the sweet things going on in Columbia this summer! I'm pretty excited!!!


--Lace

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Learn something new everyday...

Today in my TDP class, (yes, even the one where I hardly learn anything), a group presented on deaf children in the regular classroom. I learned something I thought would be useful to all of you:

Never call a deaf person "Hearing Impaired". This is NOT PC, and is extremely offensive, as if they are broken. Always refer to them as "deaf" or "hard of hearing"...



Pass it along...

Lace

p.s. 1 month from today! But who's counting?? :)

Monday, April 28, 2008

April Showers Bring May Flowers!

The life of a bride is crazy. All wedding, all the time. But, this weekend was a blast! I had two wonderful showers, and just wanted to thank everyone for making them so great! Here are some pictures from the weekend...










Counting down the days...
Lace

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Summer Reading Project

So one of my major goals for the summer is to read a bunch of books that I actually want to read, and that aren't required of me as a student. One of the worst things about being an English major is the fact that there is never enough time to read something for leisure, much less read what's required.

Book #1: The Emergent Manifesto


Really excited to start reading this. It's basically the beliefs of the emergent church, written by a ton of people including Brian McClaren, Tim Keel (pastor at Jacob's Well).

More to come...

Lace

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Today I was verbally raped and murdered...

There's nothing like it in the whole world.

I walked into the discount grocery store, hoping to find some cheap produce, but found so much more. As I walked down the meat aisle, I felt 2 grown men following me. I could hear them whispering and what not.

Finally, I heard the, "hey baby, hey baby!" "hey blondie!" "you there in the shirt," "how bout you suck my dick."

Really nice. I swallowed by humanity and began walking away, again ingoring a terrible insult from a man who saw me as an object.

This has only happened to me in my life maybe 10 times, and all since I was about 17. And every single time, I swallow, say nothing, and walk away. I wish I had the guts to say something back, but every single time this happens, the words are too peircing to say anything. I realized today that the only thing worse than this is being raped or murdered.



Sorry for the let down.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

MY CD IS OUT!!!

Yep, I have exciting news: My cd's have arrived! I am completely excited about them. They turned out great! If you pre-ordered a copy, make sure I get it to you soon! If you want one, let me know!




A goal of mine for a good two years now has finally been complete!
Thanks to everyone who helped out and made this possible for me as well! I love you all so much!

-Lacy Adair :)

Friday, April 11, 2008

The Best Book...

This is most definitely my favorite book. It's called Love Poems from God. Phil got it for me for my 20th birthday. Basically it has all these poems in it by people like Rumi, St. Francis of Assisi, Hafiz, St. Thomas, etc. And Daniel Ladinsky translated it all and put it together in this book. He has lots of other books out too: The Gift, I Heard God Laughing, The Subject Tonight is Love... and of course they are all fabulous as well...



Here's one of my favorites:

A Lover Who Wants His Lovers Near


He is
sweet that way,
coaxing the world to dance.

Look how the wind holds the trees in its hands
helping them to
sway.

Look how the sky takes the fields and the oceans
and our bodies in its arms, and moves
all being toward
His lips.

God must get hungry for us; why is He not also
a loves who wants His lovers
near?

Beauty
is my teacher
helping me to know He
cares for
me.

Welp, you should own that book...
Happy Friday!
Love,
Lace

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Did you know???

I found out an interesting little fact over the weekend:

The reason we say "God Bless You" to someone after they sneeze, is because a long time ago, people thought that a sneeze was demonic! So if "God blesses you", the demon will leave your body!!!

Pretty interesting!!!


...Lace

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Something good...

Psalm 23

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.

He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;

your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.

You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.



So good...

Thursday, March 20, 2008

My goals for Spring Break:

Spring break is this coming week. Phil is backpacking Utah. Haley will be in Jamaica. Mary Kate is going to New York City. My young life girls are going to Myrtle Beach. But, since I have a very important big day coming up in just a couple months, I have to stay home and get things accomplished. However, aside from all the wedding stuff I've got to get done, I have a list of things I'd like to do for myself, to get a little break from this thing I've been calling life... (aka the life-sucking semester of 19+ hours of school, working 20 hours a week, leading young life, and planning a wedding and a marriage. Yep, that is my life!)

  • Finish The Bell Jar - I started this book last Thanksgiving break. How pathetic is that?
  • Spend an afternoon in the Plaza Barnes and Noble, drinking some coffee, looking out the second-story windows, and reading some magazines!
  • See a $ movie a day! There's a dollar theater close to my house. They show month-old movies for only $2!
  • Play with my weiner. Haha - sounds gross but I have a weiner dog, Elmo, who is getting old and frail and needs some puppy play time.
  • Sleep in every single day. This is a hard one for me. Even when I try, I can't manage to sleep past 9. But it would be glorious if I could sleep in till about noon everyday.
  • Go running with my bff. If it's nice, it's lovely to go running with Lauren around the square.
  • Cavity filled! Yep, my second cavity of my entire life. I've got to get it filled sometime this week.
  • Wedding invitations in the mail - doesn't sound very exciting but it's got to be done!
  • Eat about a pound of peeps.



Happy 1st day of Spring!

Lace

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Happy Birthday, to the one I love!

This is the face of Phil Stroessner, 22 years old today. Isn't this picture catalogue-worthy?! What a good lookin' man. Anyway, I just wanted to wish him a very happy birthday! I love you so much babe!

-Lace